Same Old S**t, Just A Different Day...

Well i suppose yesterday was an average day to be honest, and incase your wondering what an average day is here goes:

• I get treated like an outcast.
• i get abused my the other kids.
  
• some of the staff just don't like me.

before i tell you what i did and what happened yesterday i will tell you a little about the house, at the moment we have 5 kids in, a standard children's home you can only have 6 children!
they is Caroline, Kallum, Louise, Kirsty and me, Sasha :)

Also they is allot of staff witch i will list :)


Ricky - The Home Manager - Can be OK
Ben - Deputy Home Manager - never helps me what so ever!
Jenny- Senior Care Officer - she can be alright
Craig - Senior Care Officer - Hate Him.
Rob - Senior Care Officer - So feminine but he's great!
Sarah - Care Officer - LEGEND!
Jamie - Care Officer - LEGEND!
Glenn - Care Officer - Very strange! but cool :)
Adam - Care Officer - Meh, not keen on him
Julie.S - Care Officer - LEGEND!
Julie.M - Care Officer - Doesn't do her job properly, i actually hate her!
Sue - Care Officer - cant manage her time equally with the kids, but when i do spend time with her witch is very rare she can be cool :)
Debbie - Care Officer - too full on for me, talks too much, not suitable for the job as she cant read or write :/
Lisa - Relief Care Officer - LEGEND!
Emma- Relief Care Officer - Mehhh. I can tolerate her
Paul - Relief Care Officer - hes great but sings far too much
Tony - Relief Care Officer - He use to be full time but left to move to Scotland, he still he comes to see us and does the odd shift, everyone loves Tony!
Lucy - Relief Care Officer - to mothering, it wrong!

i do have my fall outs with the staff but hey who doesn't fall out!
so i will tell you about my day yesterday :)
i woke up around 6:30 with Caroline playing her music far too loud, it even woke the staff up but as usawel they didnt say anything, i kept slowly drifting off and waking up with some really loud awful music, i then got a text off my friend around 10:30 and i decided to go out, she was staying a her nans around 6 miles away, so i asked the staff if i could have a lift because it was a little too far and i didnt know where i was going, they said no i can walk, i stood argung with them for around half an hour saying that they will drop louise off at the top of the street and drop kallum of there but they wont take me 6 miles, i didnt get no where so i just left it, as usawel i got treated like the outcast, i was out all day wth my friends, they was drinking and doing drugs i didnt do any of them because i cant, im 5weeks pregnant, nobody knows though other then my boyfriend, i am not telling the staff, it got too aroud 11:30pm and i couldnt be bothered going home bearing in mind i had to be in for 11pm,, Sarah rang me and asked me if i was going home i said yeah ill be there for 12 so she agreed and i got in for 12:05, she didnt mind, i told her abut the drinking etc ad she said she was proud of me for not doing it, i didnt sleep at all till about 4am, whilst i was out my friend took me to her friends flat and he was a disgrace! he was an alchoholic, not the sort of person i wanted to be around! but instead of been rude, i sat there and bit my tounge, he kept saying he wanted too 'smash My Back Doors In' and saying he would 'Destroy Me' all theese comments was meant in a suxual way, and for thoose that dont know, smashing somebodys back doors in means to give them anal sex, it off Celebrity Juice with Kieth Lemon, and to 'Destroy' someone means to have sexual intercourse with them, i was so close to just hitting him he really frustarted me!.. i laid in bed and just had his voice running around my head it gave me the creeps nd also made me think a hell of alot about my past, and that was it,i was depressed, who ever knew suck a small thing like that can effect someone so deeply....
On my next post i will writee alot more about myself, hope you read it!

'See it through my eyes, not somebody else's'